Saturday, December 09, 2006
A summary of my incoherent thoughts
I suddenly have this thought... what if everything that i believed all my life cease to hold true anymore... what if all the friends that i have around me are just figments of my imagination... what if what if what if...I cannot imagine what i would do... would i just break down? dunno.... i think the most politically correct answer that u can get is ' face reality, wake up'. However, I believe that the course of action that i would currently take is to stay in happy delusion and carry on day dreaming... i suppose taking the easy way out is being less cruel to myself... If waking up shatters me, let me dream forever...hmm...sometimes that keeps u going... helping to maintain your confidence level and to continue with your life as normal for the time being...
Even as i am penning this down, i am feeling a bit weird. As a person who prides at being very rational and logical, I cannot believe that i would ever think of staying in a trance... generally i dun like to run away from problems as much as possible, cos running away from them means they still have a chance to catch up with u again...so i prefer to 'eliminate' or termed more commonly-- solve them... well but then sometimes logical people would want to run away from reality too... at least until they can face it with an appropriate state of mind to be able to solve it properly.
Sounds totally like a stressed out person...
